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A little bit of good, a little bit of bad...
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A little bit of good, a little bit of bad... Well...I wanted it be uneventful and quiet, but I see that's not going happen. First off, my apologies, it's been a while and I've been busy with a lot of stuff. First off, the good... My mom got her update on her cancer situation, and the news is very good. 99 percent of the cancer is all but gone, and all that remain are small cellular pockets of cancer cells left. Which means...she's beaten the cancer....again...for the 3rd straight time. Unbelievable. Which is incredible news and a huge weight off of my shoulders for now. Here's the bad...unfortunately the blood clot has moved and is partially blocking a major artery of blood flow in her neck her brain. So...come November, she is going in for surgery again, but this time remove the clot. It's a dangerous procedure and this could be deadly. So they are going have go in and get the clot out somehow or...if that's not possible, set up some type of bypass or expand her artery. Scary stuff. I don't know how she's coping with it, but she's one tough mama. To add to this, she and my dad also got their will's in order, so that is another thing that's off the list of things to do. Which is great news. And we're working on another family meeting in order to help them with their finances and continue work on the house to get it sold and straightened around for sale. We've already painted the kitchen and cleared out a ton of junk out of the garage and downstairs sub-basement. So work is moving along getting them prepared for the move eventually. So there's some more good there. Here's some more bad...my ex-wife had a major heart attac It was so bad, they had put in stents in her arteries in order get past the blockages her heart. What's worse, she told my not tell about it at all, and I didn't know until 3 days after she had been released from the hospital. Which is fucking ridiculous, and I was really upset at the fact that she made the kids not tell that had happened. Now you're probably asking yourself, "J, why do you even care?" Well, regardless of my feelings for her, she's still the mother of my children. I still have some feeling for her, although it's not anything do with love. More like I respect her and want her be o I don't want ever have hate anyone in my life, so I would never wish ill will on her. However, its still bothersome at times and she can be a royal pain in my ass, but again, I never want hate someone. I don't have time invest in hate for someone when I'd rather be working on fixing myself. On a different note...I was seeing someone for a while. I thought that this person was someone I could develop a relationship with, however, she told me that she is just focusing on herself and her family and her own situation at the moment. Which stinks because I really found some potential in her, but I don't think that's going to happen now. It's a bit frustrating because I don't know why, but I seem to fall for people that are not able to love me or they are not capable of loving someone, whether that's at that moment or ever. It's caused me to take a step back from this person and assess if I'm even ready for a relationship or love for that matter. I know I'm capable of loving someone, but I feel that I need to take a bit to sit and think about finding someone that is capable of loving me as well, aka finding the right person who is emotionally available. Anyway, my mom's birthday is on Friday, and I'll be working on focusing on that. Plus as things are moving closer to the holidays and the new year, I need to start getting on doing some research of finding either a condo or an apartment up by my work and see what is available to me. It's going to take some time, but I really need to probably focus on myself and not on finding a relationship at the moment. Needless to say, with my life, it's either a little bit of good or a little bit of bad. Good - I went from 252 lbs. to 222 lbs, dropping 30 pounds. Bad - I dropped it because of the extreme amount of stress I've been going through and my appetite has dropped like a rock to where I'm not eating or eating very little. I can't seem to have a bunch of good news hit me all at once, ya know? Well that's all I've got for now. I'll hopefully get back to posting regularly if I can. Who can you call on to save the day? Why none other than... Agent  |
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As always, thanks for stopping by and reading! Who can you call on to save the day? Why none other than... Agent
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