emotionally its shameful just embarrassing shamefull
depraved sad eager insecure scared cant trust severely nervous like a dog from a shelter home
i made new hair potion today from the resources i had going to wash my hair tomorrrow
i lost the will to do it today look for my bed friday sleep
im upsset im upset im upset bby the fact all i can do is explain how hurt i am as appose to ~ bouncing from the foundation of happy
it just hurts
i know some of of you all have been kind to me ~ with your polite comments
i do read them and sometimes the kindness makes me cry you dont i wake up &
i do wish i had a nice man in my life a really nice one like
the nice police officers or the kind Fire man or the post man or
just those kind spontaneous people
im tired of proviing im lovely ~
i dont care anymore its just sad
i havent been choosen by anyone & i dont even want to bother
iits just embaressing being alive
the stupid woman
the one who gets slaughtered
its just shameful
having no emotional security is a rubbish horrible feeling
there is nothing kind
about never being lovely enough never ok enough ~ nothing kind about being that woman im sorry im so sorry
im genuinly upset about being creatively alive yet abandoned anyway ~ im sure someone else is having a worse time that me right now but at some point even a hairy legged woman will have a husband
the irony well excuse me for not being a hairy bitch ~
like there are no hairs at the bottom of my barrel
its sad the good moments are 10 %
compared the bad moments at 90%
i cover it up smiling like a fool all by myself yes yes yes
im gutted ~ i feel gutted like
& thats embaressing
its just sad ~ noone i have met in my life has been the man i needed i have been the woman thing use they needed like real ~ been there & rasss im like this
woman
wow
that is one big chuck of lovely that has been taken
& that last little bit shame
im too rubbish as a woman to keep such a lovely man
i feel like going to the shop & buying more wine ~ & wateer or something
always at risk of loosing the man I desire I feel I should have ~
I dont care I think i deserve that Great man
at least
id think my world would improve if someone loved me at home
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