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I've never ever blogged before in my life! Well, here goes......
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why should i feel like this?
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Publié :18/12/2010 18h57
Dernière mise à jour :30/9/2011 19h58 2352 vues
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This whole thing getting stood up sucks donkey balls. big ones. I don't understand why i feel so bad when nothing actually happened. we met in person. we talked on the phone and via cam. I did everything to a "T" for him and he didnt show.
What really gets me is WHY wont he just give me a courtesy text/call??? let me know what happpened? if i did or didnt do somehting....wtf?!!? Why do i feel so let down and depressed. seriously I was really looking forward to this door opening awhole new world for me.
but again, my fantasy is just that...a fantasy.
I am activly looking for another local Dom/Domme...we shall see what the universe throws my way..../0:
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my fantasies are still...just that, a FANTASY. )o:
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Publié :17/12/2010 3h21
Dernière mise à jour :30/9/2011 20h00 2525 vues
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those of you hoping for an amazing hardcore update to my wild n crazy fantasy--you're S.O.L. sorry ladies n gents...i too am heartbroken.
fuck this. i was a fool to think that something this amazing could happen. something i've fantasized and dreamed about for...forever!
Why is it that when put in a situation, one person cannot see what is in front of them?! Eager! Willing! WANTING!......and i was still stood up. STRIKE THREE.
So I drove 30 mins (island driving==a long ways!!! LOL ) and he texts me saying he's dealing w/ business and should be done shortly. So i'm cool--I'll stop at coffeeshop and wait it out......one and a half fucking hours later i'm jumping in my car heading down to waikiki. (visiting friends! not wasting the night away...) I can't believe he didnt show up or even answer any of my texts. I don't fucking get it???
I think I'm done w/ this. it is forever to be a fantasy only. This is the third "Dom" i've met that has ended up being nothing but talk and a BIG FAT FLAKE. How is it that i cannot find a man or woman i click and mesh with to explore this sensitive and erotic world of kink???? I did everything he asked w/out hesitation (when we spoke online/cam), and even obeyed his orders when we were supposed to meet.....
i'm done. my head is twisted.
...my fantasies are still....just that, a FANTASY.
WHAT NOW.......?
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tomorrow...
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Publié :15/12/2010 20h44
Dernière mise à jour :30/9/2011 20h01 2144 vues
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well tomorrow is the big day for me and my new "friend"! I'm very excited and nervous! I have no clue what to expect. I think it will be a very memorable evening... I will defanitly update after tomorrow--all I can say is I will be a very obedient, good girl! (o:
...the anticipation is explosive!...
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Expectations...
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Publié :15/12/2010 20h35
Dernière mise à jour :15/12/2010 20h37 1847 vues
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If suddenly and without warning, K, you had absolutely nothing to worry about, do you know what the world would begin to look like?
Un-huh, exactly the same as it does right now.
Alright, if suddenly you had absolutely nothing to be afraid of, do you know what you'd begin to look like right now?
Yeah, cool as ever.
OK, OK. If suddenly you had absolutely no expectations to live up to and no one to disappoint, do you know how free you'd suddenly be?
Yeah, same, same.
Get it? The only thing that would really change is your thoughts. And you don't need circumstances or other people to help you with that, do you?
I say it's time to blow the lid off this popsicle stand - The Universe
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HE didn't disapear!
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Publié :9/12/2010 21h34
Dernière mise à jour :11/12/2010 12h14 1845 vues
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So, I log in to my account today and there it was! An email from HIM! I'm so excited. We're chatting more tomorrow. (o:
I hate when communication between people, especially new acquaintances/friends, is paused for whatever reason, and your mind starts to wander...wonder what the hell happened. You imagine the worst, you imagine it was something you did or didn't do, you imagine it was all a joke...whatever. I automatically thought it was me. Even though he told me the reason, I thought it was an excuse to "get away" from me easily or something.
I hate when I think things like this, but can't seem to help it. Why do I do this to myself? Beat myself up like this? Does everyone else think this way? or is it just me?
I can't wait until our first encounter....gives me chicken skin just to think about it.....Mmmmm the possibilities....::mind starts to wander off::...
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maybe this will be my new thing?
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Publié :7/12/2010 17h43
Dernière mise à jour :11/12/2010 12h15 2046 vues
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I don't know! Have no clue what to write! haha! I've never blogged, ever, what do people talk about? Just what's on their minds'? Rants n raves? questions, perhaps?
I guess I'll just start with this, see how things go, and hopefully write consistantly.
I (mrs. jeep) have a lot going on right now in my life, so I'm sure I will come up with something interesting to write. mr. jeep will probably never write a blog in his life! haha! He'd rather play his PS3. blah!
well, to start I've joined another popular site for the ALTernative lifestyle and met a potential "teacher", we talked for a while, video chatted, and finally met up at a coffee house for our initial "interview". He even gave me "rules" to follow upon our meeting! It was exciting! Everything went very well and we really enjoyed each others' company. After that we text a few times and he said he had a very close family member going for surgery or just had surgery and that was keeping him from focusing on everything else. So needless to say, I've worked myself up over this potentially life-changing situation, got so excited that my "fantasy" could actually become reality and now, he's no where to be found. )o:
Is he the only fish in the sea, no, of course not. I just hope that he can pay me some attention soon, I'm getting impatient & antsy!
well thats it for now. lets see if I can figure out how to publish this now....
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